Author: emmelupond
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Getting Sober. How Did that Huge Thing Become So Little?
Of all the steps that I’ve taken, including: journaling, meditation, impulsively signing on for a couple of creative projects, learning about trauma, etc., one of the biggest steps was cutting alcohol out of my diet and out of my life. Preparing to get sober Getting sober was another big step I took over the summer Read more
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What Can Adderall Do For ADHD?
The Road Trip Imagine life as a road trip. Your consciousness is the driver of this vehicle. As we grow up, we each are learning to drive. The vast majority of people learn successfully enough to navigate on their own. Everyone has differences in skill and style, and various breakdowns and accidents occur along the Read more
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Journaling For Mental Health
I’ve been outlining the various steps I took starting in late 2019 and going into 2020 to try to emerge from a state of mental illness and misery. Although they seem random and unrelated, these steps led me, for the first time in my life, to a period of continual improvement out of the state Read more
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Hiking For (Mental) Health
In other posts, I’ve described the first effective steps that I took that let to sustained improvements in my mental health. These included creative projects, self-improvement tips, and meditation. The first hike The next “little” thing I did, that ended up being huge for me, was to start more physical activity. In particular, physical activity Read more
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Core Beliefs of Meditation Practices Are Also Trauma-Driven Beliefs
There is no doubt that my starting a mindfulness meditation practice helped to get me finally moving in a direction of healing, after searching for answers for decades. I noticed the difference in my mindset, and I knew right away that this was a tool that was going to improve my life. I still meditate Read more
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Mindfulness Meditation: the Thin End of the Wedge
I’ve already described how, during 2019 and 2020, I had started to break down what I’d always thought of merely as intense anxiety, and define what was really a cluster of debilitating symptoms that added up to feeling unbearable tension. In another post, I described a few, perhaps odd and shaky, but effective early steps Read more
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Another Symptom and a Little More Early Recovery
In a previous post, I outlined a list of some “symptoms” that I started to be able to identify, out of the fog of anxiety and confusion that’s plagued me for most of my life. Spinning In Circles One other symptom that I began to notice (these symptoms didn’t just start recently, but I just Read more
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The “Pre-Recovery” Phase: You Have to Slow Down Before You Can Turn Around
You can be so sick for so long that you have no idea how far down you’ve really fallen. That’s partly what happened to me. I didn’t realize how bad I really was. Being unwell is a terrible vicious cycle. All your energy goes into bearing the burden, and it’s easy to lose sight of Read more
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“I’m Really Very Ill”: Some Symptoms of Misery
A big part of getting better, mentally and emotionally, isn’t just admitting that something is wrong. It’s REALIZING that something is wrong. REALLY wrong. Anxiety–Acute in Intensity, Chronic in Duration The main thing that I first noticed—and when I say first, I mean I’ve been feeling it for years and somehow failed to manage to Read more
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Full of Poison: Family Dynamics and the Realization That I’m Not Broken For No Reason
In 2019/2020, I was bearing up under the burden of lifelong struggles that had never been resolved, but only endured. And this two-year period was a watershed of insights, which I started writing down to make sense of them. I started figuring out tactics and strategies for finally trying to remove some of the burden, Read more